First of all, I want to thank you for the sweet comments and emails about my Wednesday with Wanda post last week about “worries”.
It seems that is a topic we all struggle with, and I appreciate all of your prayers so much! And I am praying for you as well!
I will have to say that your encouraging words have really helped me to keep my focus on God this past week and not my worries. So thank you.
This week is a bittersweet week for our family.
Today marks my sister, Cyndi’s, first birthday without Mom.
Mom had a way of making birthdays extra special…tarting off with that early morning phone call, “Happy Birthday, sweetie!”, that we all treasured so much.
Please pray for Cyndi today. If you want, you can visit her at her blog, cyndispivey.com, and tell her Happy Birthday or leave an encouraging comment, or just send her a tweet at @walkinhisgrace. I know it would mean so much!
This week is also significant because Friday marks the one year anniversary of the day that we found out Mom had cancer.
My cousin, Darrin, is the head coach of the University of South Carolina basketball team (yes, I am bragging!) and was in town, and we were having a huge family reunion on my dad’s side of the family at my house that night.
My family had helped me get my house ready for the reunion (including Mom planting flowers by my front steps), and it was a great celebration! You can read about it HERE.
Late that afternoon, Mom had an appointment with a new doctor to see if she could find out why her face was swelling and she was so sick. After the appointment, she was planning on going back home because she wasn’t feeling well enough to join us at the reunion.
She insisted that we all stay at the reunion and not go to the doctor with her.
Little did we know that the doctor would feel a mass in Mom’s stomach and tell her before she left the office that he thought she had cancer.
My sister called Mom during the reunion to check on her, and Mom said she was fine and would talk to us later.
Mom didn’t want to ruin our evening. She had decided to tell us after the reunion was over.
I often wonder what was going through Mom’s head during those hours she sat alone at her house while we were at the reunion. She had just been given devastating news, and I know her heart must have been heavy. But there is not doubt she was talking it over with her heavenly Father!
About 10:00 that night, after the reunion, I called Mom on the phone to tell her how great everything was. It was the first big “event” I had ever hosted at my house, and she was so excited for me. Dad was on his way home from the reunion as Mom and I talked. I was smiling from ear to ear with excitement as I told Mom all of the details from the evening. And she listened, and I could hear her smiling for me on the other end of the line. She listened and listened for a good 10 minutes…I had a lot to share! :)
Then she told me about her doctor’s appointment and what the doctor had said.
My heart sunk.
But in true Wanda fashion, she said she waited until after the reunion to tell me because she didn’t want to ruin my special evening.
Always unselfish. Always thinking of others. Always strong.
That’s my mom.
I got off the phone and told my husband the news. I immediately began looking up information about cancer on the internet and Mom’s symptom’s came flooding before my eyes.
I knew it was bad.
I cried myself to sleep.
Mom went the next day for a CT scan and the bad news was confirmed. Mom had stage IV gastric cancer. Our lives were never the same.
I can’t believe it’s been a year.
I have experienced sadness and emotions like I have never known before.
And at the same time, I have seen God’s goodness and sovereignty like I have never seen before.
Some of you are facing “life changing” situations right now. You may feel scared, hopeless, confused, angry, or sad.
Please remember this,
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
Put your trust in Him today.