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  1. Oh please know we are praying for you all, and for your precious girl, that God holds all of you close right now and in the days ahead. He knows…

  2. I am so sad for all of you. Praying God will reveal his plans to you, so this can make some sense. Praying God will hold you close in his arms.

  3. Oh my goodness Traci. I am so so sorry. I am so sad myself but I can’t imagine the loss you must feel and how heartbroken you all must be. I know we as humans want to question Him and we don’t always understand why things happen the way they do sometimes but He knows why. I pray your hearts are comforted and you feel God’s grace during this sad time.

  4. Traci, my heart breaks for your family and for your sweet girl! I pray that someday it all makes sense but until then, may He wrap his loving arms around you and give you strength! Wishing your beautiful family a Merry Christmas!

  5. So sad, as a Grandmom of 4 sweet ones who were all adopted, I know the ups, downs, uncertainty and disappointment adoption sometimes brings. Take time to breathe, hug, grieve and rejoice in the fact she will always be held close in your hearts and is woven tightly into your family story.

  6. My heart is breaking for you. I wasn’t expecting this news. Who can say why, but you did your best and opened your heart. Better that with its consequent pain, than to have closed yourself off to a selfless love.

  7. Praying for you, dear Tracey, for your family, and for your girl. A wise woman told me this one time, and it has helped me many times: “G-d leads by stops as well as starts.” I know your are heart-broken, and my love goes out to you.
    GG

  8. I know how you feel, except for us, I was the one who stopped the proceedings. The matron at the children’s home told me we could have one certain child. I asked where her parents were. She said in the same town we lived in. The child was 6 years old. She knew who her parents were. I could not walk down the street with her for thinking every woman we passed was her mother.

  9. I am so sad for you. I know your hearts are broken. So very sorry. I’m not sure what country you were working with on this adoption, but I know that adoption is possible. Many would be so very blessed to call you Mom. God will get you through this disappointment. He is faithful.

  10. Yes, God’s good can come out of any situation. He has a perfect plan for your family and for the little girl you all fell in love with. I am so THANKFUL you got to be a part of her life, even for just a short season. Good seeds were planted into her life… To the praise of His glory!

  11. Traci, I feel like I know you. I’ve been reading your blog for years. I’ve been praying for you and your family since I read your post. My heart aches for all of you. I am so sorry you are having to go thru this difficult situation.

  12. Traci, when you posted that you trusted God even though you might not always understand, I wondered if something might have not gone as planned. I am so sorry. Please know that I will be lifting you up in prayer. Maybe we can have lunch sometime. A good verse to lean on is “But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.”
    ‭‭Job‬ ‭23:10‬ ‭KJV‬‬

  13. Oh Traci, I am so sorry for you, Cy and the boys. Will be praying for you all and your sweet girl. Sending hugs your way.

  14. Traci, I just read this and I am so truly sorry things didn’t go as planned. I can only image the heart break…Rest assured that you and your little girl will be in my prayers. Sending hugs, Silvana

  15. I am very sorry to hear the sad news you were not able to bring your little girl home with you. I have been thinking of you the last few weeks waiting to see a joyous photo of you all together as a family. Once you have gatherered your barings I hope you are able to share what happened so suddenly. You have shared the journey thus far & with such a devastating ending it may help others on their journey better emotionally prepare. Without knowing what happened I will continue to think positively for all of you & that you will be reunited soon, forever. I have been through traumas & losses in my life & strongly believe they can make you stronger & allow you to grow even though they are painful & you don’t understand or have answers (as have you also). I will be honest, it seems incredibly cruel that Cy & yourself left with the impression you would be bringing her home & that she had more time together with you both to grow closer. How difficult that must be for her & the heartbreak & confusion your boys must have felt so far away from everything going on. You invested your entire selves physically, mentally, emotionally & obviously financially to travel & take her home with you. The positive to take is that she brought something to your life you didn’t know was missing & you gave something to her life that can never be taken away. I hope she was not being used as a pawn from the other side as that would just be incredibly cruel to that poor little girls being. Sorry again to hear that sad & painful news.

  16. Oh Traci. Prayers for you, Cy and the boys…as especially for your precious little girl. I’m so, so sorry. (((hugs)))

  17. I’m so sorry!!! Been following you for years. Can’t believe something so painful has happened. Many prayers.

  18. Traci, I stopped at work and said a prayer for you and your family and that sweet girl who was to be a part of you family. My heart is broken for you.

  19. I’m so sorry, Traci…praying for the Lord’s peace which surpasses understanding…that your little girl would be protected under the shadow of His wings and that she would learn of Him and know Him as her everloving Savior. Praying for joy during this Christmas season. Many blessings!

  20. Tracey, This brought tears to my eyes, I am so very sorry. God knows best and there is a reason. You may not know it yet or see it. But in time God will let you know why. I will be praying for you and your families hurt and disappointments. I will be crying out for your daughter and your family. (((( HUGS)))))
    Teresa

  21. :(( I’m so sorry, Traci. God will bring her back to you and the boys, you’ll see. There’s a reason you met her. Do whatever it takes and God will help!

  22. Dear Traci and Cy, my heart goes out to you and your sons and your little girl. The hammer of life falls so hard sometimes it crushes and splinters us and we are not the same. The Man of Sorrows, familiar with grief, walks with you on this broken road. I pray for you all. Sending you love.

  23. My heart hurts for you. God has a plan, and may His will be done in your life and the life of your precious girl. One thing is for sure, your family has been a blessing to her, and she to you. That alone is a miracle. Love never fails…let that sustain you through your disappointment and loss.

  24. Traci,
    Sometimes in life you know you’ve been brought into someone’s life [or computer :-)] in order to pray for them. I haven’t been a reader very long, but I feel right now that that’s why I’m here. To be, as I am, one of many praying for you, Cy, your sons and especially your little girl. May God grant you comfort and make right this situation, whatever ‘right’ may be.

  25. Traci, I’m speechless over this news but will pray for your precious girl. Even though she isn’t in your home this Christmas, she is already part of your family and will be forever. Praying God’s perfect will for her and the rest of your precious family.

  26. I’m so sorry! I’ll be praying for you and your family. And especially a little girl that probably doesn’t understand all this adult stuff. I pray that she has someone to lean on during this heartbreaking disappointment.

  27. I am so sorry to read this news. My heart is sad for you all. God has a different plan for you all. Have a very Blessed and Merry Christmas. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  28. Dear Traci,
    I have been waiting to read the update and I
    am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers are
    with you and your family. May the love and support of family and friends and your devotion to your husband and adorable little boys help you through this heartbreak. Take care,Traci. God bless you and your family.

  29. I want you know that God treasures the tears from a broken heart. “Blessed are they who mourn,for they shall be comforted.” From experience I can say don’t try to figure out all the “why’s” right now. Take the time to let the Holy Spirit minister comfort to you broken hearts. Blessings and prayers for your whole family.

  30. Oh Traci, I was so shocked and saddened to hear this news. We are sending up many prayers for your family and this precious girl, held in the hands of our Almighty, all-powerful Savior.

  31. Dear Traci and Cy, My heart aches for you and your sons, and for your dear, precious little girl. I cannot imagine the confusion and heartbreak you are experiencing. I pray that it somehow works out in whatever way it is meant to. Blessings to you all.

  32. I’m so sorry. I can’t begin to know what that feels like, but I’ve known devastation, when this world and the things of it have knocked the wind right out of me. I hate that you and your family are suffering. All I can think of is the hymn- Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus. ” and the things of earth will grow strangely dim…” That’s what I am praying now, that in your heart, His kingdom would be magnified and His sovereignty would be so clear. Praying for overwhelming peace that surpasses all understanding. Be blessed, love. Be comforted. (((Hugs)))

  33. So terribly sorry to hear of your heartbreak…..May God comfort you and protect you and your little girl…..God Bless.

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