On July 7th, two days after my first son was born, I remember being pushed down the hallway of the hospital with my new baby in my arms headed to the car to take our “family” home.
It is one of the most joyous moments a mom can feel in her lifetime. Yet mine was clouded with tears. I have pictures of me sitting in that wheel chair, with “It’s a Boy!” balloons and gift bags attached to the handle bars. And in those pictures, if you look past my smile, you see a mother’s worried heart. My eyes were swollen from crying so much because in my arms was a little boy who couldn’t hear the sound of my voice. At least that is what I thought.
You see, Jonathan failed three separate hearing tests in the hospital, and the nurses told us that he would have to have special testing done to see if he could hear. Unfortunately, the first appointment available for that special hearing test was three months away.
So when I took my baby home from the hospital, our lives were filled with uncertainties.
Can Jonathan hear us?
Will he ever be able to speak?
Will he ever hear my voice say “I love you?”
It was a little too much for this first time mama to handle.
I have videos of us being at home that first day. My mom, sister, and other family members had stopped by to bring meals and visit with Jonathan. My eyes were still swollen from crying. I remember my mom holding Jonathan and talking to him in her precious loving way.
“Well, Jonathan, you are just perfect! Yes. you. are! You are the most beautiful little boy your Nana has ever seen!” She covered his face with kisses and gently bounced him up in down as she rocked him. Oh how she loved Jonathan!
I kept thinking, “Jonathan, do you hear Nana?,” And praying to God that he somehow could.
Through a series of events, our pediatrician convinced us that Jonathan was fine and didn’t need to take those special hearing tests, only to find out 2 and a half years later that he only had 50% of his hearing and needed to be fitted for hearing aids. It was quite a roller coaster ride, but we were thankful for the very spirited, happy, and healthy toddler that he was.
Mom paid for Jonathan to take speech lessons because Cy and I were broker than broke. I was a stay at home mom, and Cy was a bank teller. We couldn’t afford to pay attention. :) She also helped us pay for doctor’s visits and his hearing aids. You see, insurance companies do not cover the cost of hearing aids, and my mom wanted to make sure Jonathan had everything he needed!
Anytime there was any issue at all with Jonathan’s hearing or his aids, my mom was there. She adored Jonathan and was always so proud of him. So when Jonathan began to sing at an early age, mom was even more thrilled! Especially because Jonathan mostly sang hymns and praise choruses about her beloved Jesus. :) Jonathan sang his very first solo when he was almost three. He sang “Victory in Jesus” a cappella in front of the congregation. Cutest thing you ever did see, and Mom was there grinning from ear to ear.
She was also at Jonathan’s school when he sang his very first “performance” in the talent show. He sang, “How Can I Keep from Singing” by Chris Tomlin.
Little did any of us know that a little over a year later, Jonathan would be singing Amazing Grace at her funeral, as she requested. I believe all of heaven opened up that day as my 10 year old son sang with all of his might for his Nana. It was one of the saddest, yet most beautiful moments of my life, and I will never forget it! I know that Mom was beaming with grandma pride in heaven as he sang.
And now, just 6 years later, Jonathan will be singing on one of the biggest music stages of his life. Y’all, he auditioned for THE VOICE!
It has been the most amazing, unbelievable experience, and I am so happy to share it with you, my faithful readers!
Please tell everyone you know that you have a “friend” who’s son is on The Voice! Because we are friends, ya know?!
So it has been quite the journey we have been on with Jonathan. From crying as I held him in my arms as a newborn to cheering for him as his sings in front of millions….
God is so good. He is so faithful.
But let me make one thing VERY clear…even if Jonathan was to have lost all of his hearing, and if he was never able to utter even a single word….I WOULD STILL PRAISE HIM!!
God is ALWAYS good, and He is ALWAYS faithful!
I know in my heart of hearts that Jonathan’s hearing loss was all a part of God’s story for his life. And what other’s may see as a “disability”, God has used as an “ability” to reach others in His name. Jonathan loves the Lord with all of his heart, and it is his desire to honor him in his life and to share God’s love with others, in Jesus’ name.
So if you watch The Voice this season (which you better!) and you see my son on stage, may you enjoy every note he sings, but even more importantly, may you remember his story and be reminded of God’s AMAZING GRACE!