Tens years ago today, my mom left her earthly home to live forever with Jesus in her eternal home, Heaven.
I cannot believe I have been without my mom for ten years.
Many of you have been reading my blog ever since my mom passed away, so I also can’t believe that you and I have been together for a decade.
We’ve walked a lot of roads together since my mom has been gone. I feel so grateful to have you in my life.
This past week, my heart has been very reflective, and I have talked about Mom a lot to Cy and the kids. The idea of her being gone 10 years is hard for me to take in. Ten years.
Oh, y’all! What Mom wouldn’t have done to still be living! To see her grandchildren and great grandchildren grow! She would have only been 74 years old today. I know she would have still been so full of life. She LOVED living. She LOVED her family. And she LOVED Jesus.
She also loved writing letters, and I found this one that she wrote to my kids after babysitting them one day for me…
My boys called her “Nana.” She lived to make them happy. There is nothing in the world she wouldn’t have done for them.
When she passed, Jonathan was 11, Luke was 9, Adam was 7, and Eli was 3. This was my four handsome boys on the day of her funeral. I snapped the picture as we left the house to go to the funeral home. I wanted them to look their best for their Nana.
Before she passed, she asked Jonathan to sing Amazing Grace (Chris Tomlin’s version) at her funeral. And he did. It was the most beautiful song I have ever heard, and I know that Mom was smiling in heaven.
So many things have happened over the past 10 years.
- Your first granddaughter got married.
- You had two great grandchildren.
- Your daughters became full time bloggers. :)
- I miscarried. (I needed you so much then.)
- Dad remarried.
- We adopted Sania.
- Aunt Sue, your sister passed away.
- HGTV filmed our family.
- Grandkids graduated high school.
- Grandkids and great nieces and nephews became Christians.
- Jonathan was on The Voice and signing a publishing deal.
- There were struggles and healing in marriages.
- Our family moved to Tennessee.
- Birthdays, holidays, ordinary plain days…
Ten years of them without Mom.
I’ve missed her so much.
I think of her often and wonder if she’s proud of me? I always wanted to be just like her, and I fail so many times. But I try so hard to honor her legacy. The legacy that she focused on daily to leave for her children. A legacy of faith.
One of my mom’s favorite verses that she always had as a magnet on her refrigerator was…
That was her ONE desires. For her children to know and love Jesus.
Your family is not perfect, but we certainly do love Jesus. And since hearing that your children are walking the truth brings you joy, I thought I would write you a letter. :)
You would be so proud of the father and husband, Blake is. And Ande works at a church, just like you. You would be amazed at Cyndi’s strength and how she has walked in grace and great faith. Wayne loves her and his family so much! And you would still be laughing everyday at Cy. He loved to tease you. He loves me and our kids so well.
You wouldn’t believe your grandchildren!!! Courtney is married to the funnies guy, AJ. You would love him. And she is the BEST mom ever! And her babies, Colt and Claire, (your great grand children!) well, you just wouldn’t be able to get enough of them! Cory is a lawyer and doing so well. He’s still single though, so if could you talk to Jesus about that one. haha! Kinsey is doing great in college, and Drew and Ryan are doing well in school! You should see Drew play football!! He’s a stud! You would have been at every one of his games! Speaking of Drew, he and Luke have girlfriends! I know, I know….you would be giving them plenty of advice in that area! But they have found two sweet girls, and it is fun to watch them in those relationships.
Mom, you really wouldn’t believe what has happened in Jonathan’s life. I know you were always so worried about his hearing. I know you prayed countless prayers for God to restore his hearing, I’ve read them in your bibles. The Lord has never restored Jonathan’s hearing, but he has given him a beautiful gift…his voice. Jonathan is singing and writing music, and man, would you love it! Thank you for all the prayers you prayed over him. Luke is such a great photographer and is super creative like you! And he would have you laughing all the time. Adam looks just like Dad, and he would be your best buddy. He is more quiet, and has a heart of gold. Eli would have your heart, mom. He has the biggest personality, sometimes hard to contain! ha! You would love talking to him for hours, and he would love it too! And mom, Sania….sweet Sania. You wouldn’t even believe the miracle she has been in our lives. I know you would be worried about her and her special needs. I know you would be praying for her all the time…that others would be kind to her, that she would learn well and be able to thrive, and you would be telling her about Jesus every single day. Sania would have been your sidekick in the kitchen, She loves to help and would do anything you ask.
And then there’s Dad. How do I even start? Mom, YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD OF HIM! The way he has loved us all. The way that he has held our family together in your absence. The way that he has continued your legacy of faith. He loves Jesus so much, and he prays for us all. And God blessed him with Janet. You would love her too, mom. She’s so much like you, and you would love the way she takes care of your family. She’s never tried to replace you, but only to make sure you have always been remembered. We talk about you all the time and share funny stories. We laugh and we cry, but we always feel loved when we talk about you.
Mom, there’s no one like you. I am so thankful for you and the Gift of Heaven. I can’t wait to see you again, and we will have so much to talk about when I get there!
But for now, know that I love you. I miss you.
For a year after Mom passed away, I wrote a blog post every Wednesday about her. From her cancer diagnosis, to her passing, to special memories and favorite recipes…I put them in a series called, “Wednesdays with Wanda.”
If you would like to read some of my posts in that series about my mom and the legacy she left behind, you can find them HERE.