Last Friday night was a rainy night.
I picked up Jonathan from Cross Country practice at 6:15, and we headed into Lexington to get his haircut and find him something to wear to the Ky State Fair Talent Search the next day.
Since it was raining so hard, we went through a drive thru and ate our dinner in the car. As we sat in the car, we talked about the school day and our plans for the evening.
I was taking Jonathan to Dillard’s Hair Salon for a “special” hair cut. We usually get his hair cut at Great Clips, but he is all about his hair right now and was thrilled to be going to a “real” hair salon.
I sat and worked on my computer while he got his hair cut. He is looking so old right now. He has turned fifteen, his voice has deepened, and he is finally taller than me. I watched him interact with the hair dresser, and I was full of pride as I watched how respectful he was to her.
After his haircut, we went downstairs to the men’s department and started looking at the clothes. They were having an AWESOME sale, so we stuck to the sale racks to try and find something for him to wear. He probably tried on a dozen pair of pants and matched them with different shirts. He wanted to look a little more dressy than he normally does for his performances. I sat in the dressing room with him, and we laughed and cut up as he tried on his clothes. It brought back memories of all the times my mom sat in the dressing room with me while I tried on clothes.
I was blown away with how handsome Jonathan was all dressed up! (Yes, I’m bragging.) I’ve always thought Jonathan was good-looking. But seeing him dressed up and looking so old, man, it made this mama’s heart skip a beat and made me scared to death at the same time. I have a feeling I will be fighting the girls away soon. :)
Unfortunately, we couldn’t find anything that we liked, and we ventured out to the “non-sale” racks. Of course, we found something we loved! :)
We got him a dressy pair of gray jeans and a button down to go with it. As I paid for the clothes, I said something like, “Your dad is going to kill me. This is way more than I planned on spending.”
Again, I thought of Mom and how many times I heard her say the same thing to me. It touched a tender spot in my heart.
The store was closing, so we didn’t have time to find shoes or a belt. Plus, I really didn’t have the money. I told him we would see if any of his shoes at home would work.
We drove all the way home and talked some more about the competition the next day.
Saturday morning, we got up early and drove an hour and a half to Louisville for the State Fair. He had to be there at 11:30 to check in and then go through rehearsals.
The competition wasn’t until 7:00 pm that night. It was going to be a looooong day.
Before his rehearsals, we went in a room by ourselves, and I listened to him sing his songs. I gave him pointers and positive feedback.
He did a great job during rehearsals. He performed in front of the other contestants which I am sure was nerve wrecking, but he did a great job.
After rehearsals, we left the fair grounds and went to get some lunch. It was about 1:30, and we still had about 5 hours until the competition.
We ate lunch at Chili’s, and we had a lot more laughs and great conversations. I love having “adult” conversations with Jonathan. He’s not a child anymore. We talk about important things now like relationships, faith, dreams, and life. I am proud of who Jonathan is, what he stands for, and his positive outlook on life. He is truly a joy to be around.
After we ate, we went to the mall to see if we could find some shoes for him to wear. I thought how funny it was that we were still trying to put together his outfit just a few hours before the actual competition! I know that all of the girls in the competition probably had their outfits planned out weeks, if not months, ahead of the competition. Boys are so laid back, and I LOVE it!
While we were shopping for some shoes, we met one of my blog readers! She recognized me AND Jonathan, and it was so great to talk and connect with her. She was precious!
We finally found some shoes for Jonathan on sale at Penny’s, and we got a belt on sale too. We finally had his whole outfit, and I thought he looked like a million bucks!
Cy had been feeling under the weather, so he stayed home and then met us that night for the competition.
The place was packed! Probably over 1,000 people!
Before the show, I went backstage again with him to listen to him practice some more.
There were some of the other contestants backstage and a few of them got together for a prayer. As Jonathan held hands with complete strangers and prayed together, my heart was so full of joy. I listened to Jonathan as he prayed, and I thank God that we live in a place where we are free to pray anytime and anywhere.
We stood facing each other, with our foreheads bowed and touching, and our arms on each other’s shoulders. I prayed for God to give him a peace and to remind him that the most important thing was to Glorify Him. It didn’t matter whether he won or lost as long as he knew that He mattered to God. Life is so much more than competitions.
After we prayed, he thanked me and gave me a big hug. And I thought to myself, “Priceless.”
We all had butterflies in our stomach as we sat and watched the first few contestants. Jonathan was number eight, so he went back stage around act number four. I couldn’t wait to hear him perform!
When he came on stage, he looked adorable and started off great! But when he missed a couple of chords on his guitar, his nerves got the best of him and he said he “froze.” He said he didn’t know if he was singing the right words or playing the right notes, and I could tell it too. Now, I don’t know if the audience really did notice, because he DID remember all of the words, and he played most of the chords perfectly. But I could see in his face that he was nervous, and he didn’t perform to his best potential.
After his performance, he came and sat with Cy and I. He didn’t say much. He knew he wouldn’t place. He knew it wasn’t his best performance. I kept encouraging him and telling him it was alright. Tears filled up in his eyes.
And then he leaned over to me and said, “Mom, I am so sorry. You’ve spent all this money on me this weekend…”
I stopped him mid sentence and pulled his head to my shoulder. “Jonathan, stop. This weekend was PRICELESS to me! I would spend a million dollars to have this time with you again! You cannot put a price tag on the memories we made and the fun we had together these past two days. Most moms would die to have the chance to spend this kind of time with their child!”
And then I thought about my mom again, and all of those times that she sacrificed her time and money for me as a child. And I remember how loved it made me feel.
But what I didn’t know was how it made her feel. I remember feeling bad for all of the stuff my mom would do for me. But now that I am a mom, I know. I know that it brought her great joy to do those things for me. Just like it brought me great joy to do those things for Jonathan this past weekend.
It wasn’t the money that I spent on him that made the weekend special, it was the time I spent with him that made it priceless.
The weekend was filled with precious moments that this mama will hold deep in her heart forever.