Tear Drops on the Floor

I got back from my trip to Florida on Saturday, and Sunday morning, we went to church.  

Sania sat between Cy and I.  We had a wonderful time of worship and listened to a great sermon. 

At the end of the service, we stood to sing the last song.  As soon as the band began to play, Sania gasped and looked up at me.  

They were playing “her song.”  

The song that was released and became popular over 4 years ago when we were beginning our adoption process. 

The song that she had never heard in the orphanage in Latvia. 

The song that she didn’t know the words to when she finally came home with us forever because it was in English, not Latvian. 

(The first time we met in the Atlanta airport 4 years ago.)

But it was the song that gave Cy and I hope as we fought to bring her home to us.  So many of the words of that song spoke directly to us during her adoption. 

So on Sunday, as the band began to play her song, louder and stronger, she began to smile and rock back and forth to the rhythm, singing the words out loud and off key, “I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.”

She loves that song! 

I held her left hand, and Cy held her right hand, and we sang together, “You split the seas so I could walk right through them!  You drowned my fears in perfect love!”

The Lord split the Atlantic Ocean wide open and provided a way for us to find Sania in Latvia, and for her to find us in America.

He drowned her fears of being alone in His perfect love. 

Even though Sania was smiling and singing with all of her heart, I knew what was about to come.  I knew things were about to change.  They always do when we hear this song.

And as we continued to sing, I noticed that Sania’s head began to look down to the floor.  Her long black hair draped over her face like a curtain, and then I saw them… 

Tear drops. 

Tear drops creating tiny little puddles on the concrete floor. 

(I snapped this picture of her sweet tears on the floor as we were leaving church.)

My sweet girl was crying.  Overcome with emotions. 

This same little girl who never cried or showed any emotion the first year we brought her home, now cannot hold her tears in when she hears “her song.”

And I can’t either. 

As I stood there and held her sweet hand and watched those tears hit the floor, my heart felt like it was going to explode with gratitude to God.  Not a day goes by that I am not just completely amazed at how God brought her into our lives, and how perfectly she was always meant to be ours. 

Only God.

(My “image bearing WARRIOR daughter.”)

I’ve asked Sania many times why she cries when she hears her song, and she always replies with, “It makes me feel so loved.”

And in my heart, I always think, “me too.”

What I wouldn’t give for the whole world to know this kind of love!  The kind of love that only God can give.  The love that KNOWS us, RESCUES us, CHANGES us, and FULFILLS us.

This is my prayer.



Of course, I can’t end this post without sharing “Sania’s song.”  



  1. Traci,
    I absolutely love this and your story. I am excited to follow along in your journey. Shania is truly blessed to have you, as much as you are to have her! Thanks for sharing your heart. I am going to borrow Sania’s song! 💞

  2. How incredibly beautiful! God truly works in mysterious ways and performs miracles in our lives daily. Don’t you think we can never thank Him enough? 😊

  3. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful story! I’m so thankful God wove your stories together and that He has and is being glorified through it.

  4. Thank you for sharing such a tender moment. So many of us have watched, hoped and prayed from afar for you and your precious family. Isn’t God wonderful !! I’m so glad Sania has a song ! Blessings from Canada 🇨🇦

  5. What an awesome moment for you all. God’s love IS overwhelming and His plans always perfect!
    Such sweetness in this post!

  6. And now I have tears. Oh my goodness, Traci, how sweet…I have no words. Our God knows what we need even before we do; I have no doubt that He planned sweet Sania to be a Hutcherson long before you did.

  7. I have never heard that song – beautiful!
    Your adoption story is just another example of God’s perfect plan in His perfect timing. Blessings to you all!
    Thank you for so bravely sharing your journey with us so we can all learn and praise the Lord for what He has done and continues to do!

  8. Oh my, this was a tear jerker of a story. What a lucky little girl to be in such a loving home and to be loved so much. If only all children of this world could experience the love of a family and God’s everlasting love for us.

  9. Such a beautiful testimony of God’s love and legacy. Sania has had a double adoption!
    Thank you for sharing, my heart is so happy for y’all.

  10. What an amazing song! So thankful for you sharing it. I see why this song brings so much emotion to you and your family. God bless, you all.

  11. I am melted. Torn. Grateful. And overwhelmed. I have no words other than thank you for your sharing and letting me live vicarious through you.

  12. That was one of the most touching blog posts I have ever read. I have goose bumps and tears in my eyes. Thank you for sharing!!

  13. Hi Traci!
    What a beautiful story and a beautiful child!! I just can’t believe its 4 years. I remember those days and following your ups and downs till she came home to her forever family. God is so good in all circumstances.
    I still think of cy and pray he is healing!!
    Donna from PA

  14. That is one of my all-time favorite songs! I sing in our praise band and I get all giddy when we get to sing it, but like Miss Sania, I start crying too because I know how awesome God is and how he has taken care of me, my friends and family. You always touch my heart when you write these posts. Thank you for sharing.

  15. Traci, Thank you for sharing this beautiful story with us! Y’all are truly blessed! As I’ve said before, Sania looks like you gave birth to her. It was meant to be!!

  16. Beautiful story…and this song has had special meaning for me, too. I’d totally add some tears to that cement floor. Thank you for sharing this precious part of your stories.

  17. Beautiful … WE serve an awesome God! You have a wonderful daughter and an amazing family. May God continue to bless you and your family.

  18. Thank you for sharing your daughter’s beautiful story about this amazing song. If you hadn’t told us she was adopted I would have never guessed. You both look very similar. God Bless you and your daughter.

  19. Such a sweet story. Both of my boys have a special song that got me through the lengthy Russian adoption process twice. When we were in the car they would ask to hear “their” song. It truly was like God was speaking to me.

  20. Such a sweet story. Both my boys have a special song that got me through their length Russian adoption process twice. They would often ask to hear “their” song. It was like God was speaking to me.

  21. I am also moved to tears over this post! What an encouragement as we are facing issues in our family and need God to once again split the seas!! He IS faithful!! Thank you for these words. 💛

  22. Love your story, Traci and a true miracle blessing for Sania, you and your family! This brings tears to my eyes…and I just love this song (Sania’a song). I am so touched by this post! Blessings to all!

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